Monday, February 03, 2003

I have a horrible chronic problem, a very un-American problem. Yes, I am shy. This is not a problem that is made for the American ethic. It does not really respond to hard work and perseverance. Talking to two more people than you usually do really isn't going to help you on the weekends. It's like running two inches in a year and realizing that you're running a marathon.
You could try to hide behind a facade of 'cool,' but then you'd just be eaten up on the inside. While we Americans love to find a hollowed out corpse, it's not really the healthiest approach, is it? Pretending things don't matter is the surest way to have them balloon into an even worse problem.
Some people say you should take drugs, which I think is bullshit. Isn't it kind of insulting to the people who have been debilitated by the actual disorders that SSRIs treat to just pop pills because you don't have anything to do on weekends? If you were afraid to go outside your door because you are frightened by people, yea, maybe drugs can help. But for the rest of us saying just take a pill is an insult, and a symptom of a rather stupid disease.
The idea that personality quirks are a disease is plain moronic. I mean, what is there going to be a 'dude, I'm pissed off' disease next? Do we need to have pills to shape us all into happy happy conformity forever and ever? Do we even know how dangerous it may be to fool around with people's brain chemicals when they don't even actually need them fooled with?
Using pills when they are needed is great, but if you overprescribe things, it gets to be rather dangerous. Also, many of the doctors handing out these pills are just general practitioners, which opens up another can of beans. I don't want a doctor that knows little or nothing about my personal areas to be working on them, and much less someone who doesn't know about my mind.
We may experience some true problems because of our belief that every problem should be a short term problem and gotten over without any work at all. I hope they are not severe.

No comments: