There are rumors that our voting system is insecure. I'm only a girl on the street, but it's important to at least be one of the millions of people to get this out here. Even a small action can be better than no action.

On a cheerful note, one can buy the entire Fancy Lala series for $40. This is an adorable series in which a young girl gets a magic pen that allows her to turn into a grown up, and is appropiate for all ages. There is also a Fancy Lala mailing list, which I moderate, very badly.

What's with these people? Their kid isn't potty trained at 3? String them up! She has to have him in an elite pre school, but can't potty train his behind. I think her priorities are messed up here.

Remember Chris Rock's quip about how he is more scared of Al Cracker than Al Queda? With nut jobs like this running around, I fear it won't be a joke anymore. At least our government is against crazy Muslims blowing up our towers, but crazy white folk? Well...

Sweet action! Sabrina got a manga makeover. Also, it's good to see young female cartoonists getting a shot! People who bitch about manga don't understand how big a groundswell of fandom this is. This whole thing is giving them the new artists that are going to be creating comics after the fanboy generation dies off. Superhero comics no longer speak to the children of today. Even I didn't care when I was a kid. But manga- that was something I could get behind. Everyone will be making manga theirs, and therefore comics will be theirs, as manga is comics, something that many people forget. It's cute to have an exclusive club, but I'd like to see more diversity in comics.


Also, I don't think I've linked this cute little mini essay (warning: Utena spoilers, possible triggering for rape survivors) about Anthy and her possible goddesshood.

(Time to spoil Utena again!)

So, this time around, I had my questions answered. It was Akio all the time. Also, I really like this show as it uses shoujo archetypes in a nice, creative way. There is Juri, the tragic lesbian. Utena, both the wide eyed innocent, and the manly girl that is idolized by all. There is of course, the tale of true friendship, that conquers all. This, to me, is the true core, and of course, everyone loves art that represents their longings. There is the girl who gathers the male harem- Utena, of course. What I like about anime in general is the fact that it's not afraid to show passion, and be sincere. While the story of the prince is shown to be an illusion, it's not in a mocking way. But of course, I'm still sort of silly, I guess.

The woman at Silver Rights seems shocked, shocked that a white person would write something racist on the internet. I read the guy's entry, and I'm like 'what a pussy!" He says wanting reparations is 'emotional', but his argument is emotional too- Oh, someone might have to take responsibility for their actions! Oh the horror! It's the typical stupid white person who seriously thinks that somehow the effects of one's actions magically disappear if you make excuses for them. I'm sorry, but they don't. If this guy wasn't so emotionally overwrought with conservative white guilt(we did something wrong, so we have to pretend it was right), he'd notice what even a five year old knows. "Sorry" (and we didn't even really get a sincere sorry at that) just doesn't cut it.

He blathers on about the Jews. WTF? The Jews got reparations, dude. The Germans weren't pussies, they took responsibility. They didn't make up a bunch of lies and excuses. If your ancestors hadn't been pussies, we would have dropped this a long time ago. I mean seriously, if the Germans had been "well, we all didn't personally put the Jews into ovens, and make their skin into lampshades, and plus, didn't all the Jews killed go to heaven?" everyone would have laughed them out of the room. That excuse is so flimsy that it's pretty insulting, in fact.

I like how when a black or latino or something does something, it's all about the personal responsibility. But if white people go around getting all kinds of shit they didn't earn because of slavery, and oppressing people, it's suddenly no one's responsibility, and we should just forget about it. White people, we're smarter than five year olds, and five year olds know that excuses don't cut it.

Rant over, but here's some good information to educate you, if you want to be educated. There are thousands of books and articles, most available at libraries or online, that you can look at if you want to be educated about this subject. But if you're uneducated, and try to spout off on it, you shouldn't be surprised that you don't get any respect. To get respect, you need to respect other people, and that means trying to find out the consequences of slavery and Jim Crow, not just assuming that magic fairies made these consequenceless acts. I'm not saying only whites need to educate themselves, but if blacks, Hispanics,etc already get taken to task, but whites don't, so it's important to take them to task sometimes, so they don't get so so complacent.

For reparations, I don't want money- I want to know that they sincerely feel this is wrong, that it won't happen again, that they'll try to fix a bit of the cultural genocide, and give black kids more opportunities to succeed, that they have been denied for hundreds of years. Affirmative Action helped, I'm glad that someone decided to try to help reduce the discrimination in a conscious fashion, but we need some more here. You can't just do stuff half assed, and then blame the folks you fucked with.

Fantastic has a good fake chicken ramen soup. I wonder if they have real chicken ramen soup, I'd buy it. While enjoying lifestyle consumerism, I'd like to say I like shea and cocoa butter lotion. It's really great.

In other news, yesterday I wondered what was with the car free day sign in the window of the bicycle shop. Apparently, for Atlanta, it's September 22nd. It has to do with reclaiming our lives from the automobile" I don't know about that, but walking or biking to places that aren't too far away, or using public transportation when you can is a good idea. Do you really have to pollute the whole planet to go one block down, you know?

Also, I learned of the Critical Mass protest, which was bigger than usual, as people started to protest against the President. It's good to see people doing something, even if it's just biking in the street. Here are some guy's pictures from this event.

Race Traitor continues to be good-I'll describe the stories I liked best. I liked the story in which the man gets the 'colored' newspaper, and when hassled says 'you must think I'm white". I also liked the prison riot story in which the guards tried to put the whites up against the blacks, but they wouldn't do it, and a different view of the LA Riots(here called the LA Rebellion), which it was a multicultural race/class riot against oppression. The story in which the white woman dates a black guy is lackluster, but contains a good quote "Maybe we know ourselves from the deaths we choose".

I hope they air this ad. Also, everyone remember to vote. Especially black folks. I'm a bit chauvinistic here, but black folks seem to know a bit about what's going down. They knew the war wasn't going to be cool, they knew that Bush wasn't promising much of nothing. I'm not saying everyone did, but when 90% voted for the other guy, it's a sign of something, and I think it's a sign that we knew that Bush wasn't the right guy.


Also, this is a very thought provoking fan essay on FF7. I have forgotten the entire plot, so I can not talk about whether I agree or disagree. In other news, the book Race Traitor is turning out to be very good. More news as things develop. In the first essay, I thought Noel was a bit cheerful in his assumption that people would do the right thing if it was easy, and I'm into the second essay, in which the author is talking about the general shallowness of the way multicultural education is played out.

As I've written before, I'm very interested in whiteness, and especially in the fake 'history' of the whites. From what I can tell from hearing whites talk, it is this: The Pilgrims sat down to eat Thanksgiving with the Indians, but then the Indians started to try to kill them for no reason. Also, a bit later, the Africans made them take slaves, but no one owned them, and of course it wasn't that bad,etc,etc, and everyone should just forget about that anyway. Then the States had a war over States Rights, and gave us a nifty flag. Then we saved Europe from the Nazis. Then MLK made a speech, and everyone stopped being racist, although no one was racist before, of course, but then in the 70s, blacks decided to make up racism, to get more welfare, and to take all the white people's jobs at the same time, and thus the whites were oppressed.

This is of course, very different from the real history, and many whites do know real history, through the reading of books, but many choose to believe fake history. It's like a mass delusion.

I can do the quiz thing too!


You are a RSIT--Reserved Sentimental Intellectual Taker. This makes you a Archetypal Older Child.You are a hard nut to crack. You have a wicked sense of humor. Despite your reserved nature, you are more comfortable (and successful) in the meeting and courting mode than you are in a long term relationship. You feel misunderstood, and usually you are. When you're in a good mood, you're funny, fascinating and a sexy firecracker, but when you're in a bad mood you are moody, broody and impatient. In courtship mode, you don't have to let anyone see your moody side. If you had your way, even in a long term relationship you would have enough time apart to deal with your bad moods yourself; unfortunately, it rarely works that way. You stifle *a lot* of anger and frustration -- from all areas of your life -- so when it comes out it comes out nasty. More than any other type, your conflicts tend to turn on one tiny thing -- the dishes, the laundry -- that's really a scapegoat for your larger dissatisfactions with your relationship. You're baffled that your partner just can't do the dishes -- your partner is baffled that it's such a big deal. The only way around it is to let the dishes go entirely and try to get at the real root of what's bothering you. I'm making you sound like a bear, but the fact is that you're so warm and charming most of the time that it effectively offsets the times you're unhappy. You will make a weirdly good parent. Don't pair up with someone who'll make sexual demands of you. That's just not going to fly at all.Of the 10309 people who have taken this quiz, 5.9 % are this type.

This web comic is great! Like the big size, sense of humor. I'll definitely come back every Thursday. This is from a canceled comic from Alternative, I think. Due to lack of cash flow, they couldn't bring this one out.

I don't agree with this petition. I think it should be stronger. I mean, just saying something is bad is good, but not doing it is even better.

Here a black Utena group, of which I like Wakaba best, and a great Nanami. She really looks like her.

Also, in Watchmen, which I just bought, I'm seeing a nice layering of meanings between the words and the pictures. I like that in comics. Also, in Parable of the Sower, I liked the character of Bankole, who acted as a bridge to the past in this story. He was born in the 1970s, which was a time of change, before the backlash of the 80s.

In another rant, I'd like to note it's a lot easier to find good manga deals on ebay than it is to find good anime deals. Anime is filled with cheap knockoffs. I don't want to support some shady pirate, I want to support some honest person selling their anime off. I also don't like to buy stolen goods in general- why don't people go and get an honest living, instead of being vultures?


Here is John Kerry's Economic Plan. I'm not educated enough to assess whether this plan will create jobs or not. But, it's best to at least know what he wants to do instead of not knowing. I'm guessing he wants to lower taxes to keep companies from investing abroad, and that he wants to give tax credits to businesses that create jobs. But for all I know, he could have said he wanted to copulate with a rutabaga.

It seems that Golda Meir is kicking my ass and taking some names! Here is a good quote:

When there was an outbreak in assaults against women at night, a minister in the cabinet suggested a curfew to keep women in after dark. But it's the men who are attacking the women, Golda responded. If there's to be a curfew, let the men stay at home, not the women.

I understand the Kerry Health Plan a bit better. If he can push it through Congress, it would be a good idea, I think. That's insurance for nearly everyone, here. I'd certainly vote at the polls for that. Currently I am readying my letter for an absentee ballot to mail back. In TN, it seems that all it takes is a letter to your country commissioner with a little information, and you're set. It's a pretty convenient way to vote, and if you're going to take an hour out of your life to complain, you can take an hour out of your life to vote.

While I'm complaining, I might as well complain about the high cost of white privilege in the software industry. Or maybe I should say Stupid American privilege? I don't know. But let's get to complaining. The fact that they couldn't be arsed to learn anything about the rest of the world cost them millions of dollars. Not to mention, these people are obviously incompetent at their jobs. Many whites are. (well, many of every other race suck at their jobs, too) However, people automatically assume whites don't suck at their jobs. So a bunch of average to stupid whites just slide through the system, fucking everything up, and no one ever notices or raises a big stink about it. No one will indict all whites for these people's stupidity. No one will say "well, I won't hire a white person again! Look at what they know about geography!"

The GOP is evil. Of course, while I'm aware that most blacks stay away from the Republican Party for a reason, I just can't understand their thirst to have it understood that they are amoral dirtbags. Of course, I just don't understand why many whites in general are so eager to showcase their ignorance. It's like they think no one else's ancestors and history merits respect at all. Like I don't know anything about the Hmong, but I wouldn't go around saying "Well, those Hmong should stop sponging off of welfare! We saved their asses in the Vietnamese war, and this is how they repay us?"*, because I'm present enough to realize that knowing two (incorrect) facts isn't enough to critique people. But whites will go on, and say the most insulting things, although the only thing they know about blacks comes from rap videos. I'm not saying that blacks aren't complicit in the production of rap videos, but it's kind of your responsibility to not take entertainment as the only truth, you know?

So don't tell blacks how to feel about stuff they actually know about and you don't. We'll decide when we 'get over' slavery. We'll decide for ourselves which names are appropriate for our children(When I was a kid, I really wished I had a black name- Shannon's not only a white name, but a boring one. Couldn't I be a Jenny or something cute at least?) We'll decide for ourselves whether we are working hard enough. We'll decide for ourselves what party we should vote for. If we vote for only one party, that's our business. We'll decide for ourselves what offends us. Sure, blacks will differ, but what will remain the same is that we'll decide for ourselves what to think, and we don't need whites to say we should be grateful because at least we're someplace 'civilized'. The problem is that many whites thinks the narrative centers around them. It doesn't. We do not have to be white, or to think like whites to be valid people in our own right.

Also, I'm constantly confused by whites offering defenses for slavery, and then saying they had nothing to do with it. Some Africans may cut off their daughter's clits, but I don't say "Well, at least they'll be chaste" and "The Arabs do it too!". I say, truthfully, that I do not understand that aspect of their culture, but it seems bad to me on the face of it, as it seems likely to cause infections. If you seriously have nothing to do with something, you don't need to lie or make excuses about it.





*This is VERY factually incorrect. They fought for us during the Vietnam war, and also, it's silly to assume they are sponging off welfare.

I feel much better about my cartooning now. The You Damn Kid artist started out only slightly better than me, and now he's amazing. So I feel inspired to push on, even though I can't draw chairs.

Once I had a terrible comic. I drew it for a year. It was pretty entertaining to me, and some people like actively encouraged it. Boredom is a powerful drug. I'm drawing a comic again, and I still can't draw. It's terrible.

"Another poll reveals that for the first time this century, young white adults have less tolerant attitudes towards black Americans than those over thirty. One reason is that 'the under 30 generation is pathetically ignorant of recent American history". Too young to have experienced or watched the civil rights movement as it happened, these young people have no understanding of the past and present workings of racism in society"- Lies My Teacher Told Me, p. 170.

This paragraph reminds me of how we all should strive to educate ourselves. No one is going to tell us our history. No one is going to explain how we got where we are. We can not understand why we do things today without understanding how we did them yesterday. So often I have to hear from SWP who don't understand the violence that happened before, during, and to a lesser extent after the civil rights movement, and why whites couldn't be on the honor system as far as hiring. They don't understand the hard work that blacks did and continue to do. They don't understand anything, but continue to speak.

I don't understand how I can start to understand that society is not a random collection of individuals, and that we all have agency, not just poor black people, and they can't. I think it has something to do with my reading, so I guess I should encourage that. I don't want my generation to go around being nitwits.

Maybe there is a learning disability in sociology, but quite possibly they don't want to understand how society works. Shitting on scapegoats just feels too good

Sweet! I inked a drawing! These calligraphy pens also seem like they will rock when I master them. I haven't scanned it, as I am supposed to be packing, but I think my love for Decarlo is obvious. I guess everyone looks like their influence(well, albeit very very vaguely) until they get their own style. Only a few weeks ago did I suddenly become able to draw. Sometimes my ability splutters for a day or so, but then I can draw again. I don't know what happened- I used to have more bad art days than good art days, but thanks to a miracle, I now am drawing almost recognizable humans. I am shocked, shocked.

Well, today I went to Davis Kidd, a bookstore in Memphis, which apparently only has one location. Before it seemed a bit dinky, but they had remodeled, making the store more attractive. They had a lot of trinkets and stuff, so I got a nice big journal, for when I run out of the journal I am going to write in after my current journal , which sounds weird unless you consider that I journal like at least once a day, and this does not count this blog, and a big sketchbook, since I seem to be running out of pages in my old one lately. I also got Parable of the Sower, since Parable of the Talents was so good. I also got Persepolis, because I have heard a lot of good things about it. I considered Shutterbox, as I like to support American 'manga' artists, but will get it later. I also got a book called Statistics for the Utterly Confused, which I picked from a selection of statistics books shown to me by a helpful clerk. It seemed to have the most practice problems, with actual numbers, instead of just asking you about the concept. Why would you care about the concept at all? That's not going to be what they are testing you over, so why waste time?

Speaking of manga, I did not know that Viz had the rights to the Here is Greenwood manga. Although I don't like to preorder much. If I want to spend money, I want to get the item like right then, not wait. But for more mature customers, I'm sure this is welcome.

In other news, Iraqi Olympic team members do not appreciate being used as propaganda tools for the Bush administration.

"Do you think 'Gee, I'm a white male? I am the essence of what is to be. Everyone else is just a variation on that" - Phoebe Glockner to Gary Groth. This is a pretty asute observation, after we notice that the majority of the world's population does not consist of whites, or even of males, I don't think.

This website is full of nice drawings of women, but does this guy have to rely on ethnic stereotypes? I'm sorry, but this is 2004, no one needs to rely on the old 'exotic' foreigner thing anymore. It seems that Alan Keyes is talking about reparations. I agree with the need, but I would do things differently. In my plan, there would be plenty of grants for learning about African history, culture, and languages. There would be African History museums, and every child would know how all cultures contributed to the making of this country. Every black child would be entitled to special afterschool lessons on test preparation, entrepreneurship, how to get into college,( and colleges would be required to recruit from these programs) , how to network, get an internship, and many other important lessons. I wonder what organizations are out there fighting for similar suggestions?

A weird note about anime- I am annoyed when people assume that Americans get all the good stuff, and all the other anime not released is crap. I think anime released in the US is what they will think will be marketable, not what is good. Of course, I've been an anime fan for years, back when there were no Miyazaki movies out on DVD and the best you could hope for in shoujo was dubbed Sailor Moon, so I'm able to understand that not all the best anime is out in the US. Also, there's not a universal best anime, oftentimes. For example, I adore Onii-sama E a.k.a. Brother, dear Brother. I love its' melodrama and style. But others may hate melodrama, and like giant robots instead, and so their best anime may be different from mine.

Also, Moveon.org wants you to give them money for their slick advertisement, saying that one of Bush's ads is false. It looks very compelling, very well made. Good job. I'll certainly pay a bit of money to get that on the air.

This post got me thinking on my worldview. I believe that people have a large tendency for evil, and a somewhat smaller tendency for good. The evil tendency can be triggered by a bad environment. While people have a good deal of control over their evil tendencies, a bad environment can tip them from neutral or good into evil. So that's why you'll see me freaking out over racism- I think that racism can make a overall decent person act like a jackass for no reason, and that is totally freaky to me.

In other news, I think I hate ponchos already. However they decide on what clothing to push, they've decided on ponchos.
I first became cognizant of this fake ass 'trend' is when crappy ol' Steinmart tried to send us shitty sales advertisement touting ponchos as a 'must have' for fall. Ponchos? I know they are really scrapping the bottom for fashion, but ponchos? I know whoever is in charge of designing clothes to push to magazines and TV probably doesn't think of how the design will be seen in the cheap and gaudies- I'm not talking down on cheap stores like Holiday's and TJMaXX or Target and even the dreaded Wal Mart, I wear plenty of cheap clothes myself. It's just that some styles can not really take the transition from expensive designer wear to cheap fashion clothes.

When a clothing style first comes out, it comes out in the big expensive stores. This version has all the bells and whistles- it has fancy trim, maybe better construction, fabric, and cut. But this version is not the version that most will be wearing. Ponchos are ugly in the first place, and while a few bells and whistles can make them almost acceptable, the shapeless ugly ones everyone will end up with will be totally ugly. It'll be even worse when they get into plus sizes- apparently if you don't fit a certain body paradigm, you should just wear a burlap sack and get it over with.

Although more about cheap and gaudies- I like thrift shops better- you can get good quality clothes for cheap. I should find more avenues for used clothing, and try more online boutiques.