A Fruitsy flamewar.

I simply don't see the big deal. I mean, seriously, this is a Livejournal group based off of people looking at magazines of Japanese street fashion, and deciding they wanted that style. So Gwen Stefani did the same thing? Who cares- I could see if they had slaved ten years making original garments by hand, but picking up cute accessories off ebay does not qualify you to say what people should wear.

People complain that the fashion won't be fun if everyone else is doing it. BS! What makes your style unique is you. Express yourself in your own way that is good for your body. Put your own spin on the fashion- a good style has never been about just slavishly copying someone else- it's about putting your own spirit into your clothing- about transforming yourself through your appearance. Even people in uniforms find a way to put a unique spin on their clothes- and just because some pop star bounces in and sings a song about clothes, all the sudden your fashion isn't fun?

You must not really love fashion if you can't find a good way to break the mold just because some blonde lady jumps around on TV, get a fucking grip! ...Then again, I'm a bit harsh. Many people are teens on that group, so they will be a bit less confident than older people. However, come on. Fashion is fun if you make it fun. Put some energy into your fashion!

Yay! More Studio Ghilbi stuff coming out in 2005~! We're all winners.

An outraged classmate of mine read this article out loud, and I nearly passed out in shock.(Not because she was shocked about our school looking snobby, but not real issues, of course) I didn't even know that Seven was a brand name until I read the article for my self. However $150 for jeans?! I've been beating my self up for spending a lot of money on clothes, but I've been getting handmade clothes that are unique for less than $50 or designer brand clothes(like Tripp, etc) for less than $30. It takes me about 2 or 3 outfits to get up to $150, sometimes even 4. I can see paying a bit more for clothes that are handmade and unique, but just getting regular old jeans? Maybe it's because of my anti pants bias, but how can a pair of jeans be worth $150? Are they made of gold or something?

I like expensive fashion and all- I love this shop. However, note the dresses that are cheaper than the jeans the girls are buying, and they are all custom made clothing. I don't see how you can get custom made clothes from a designer(apparently) less expensively than regular old jeans! It just blows my mind. I love clothes and since high school I have been spending like $200 a year on clothing,and I thought I was doing good- I love clothes. Of course, I've always been a bit of a clearence shopper, and my clothing buying binge has mostly been ebay, which I love. I got this dress which was on clearence for $11, for $9, $14 w/ shipping. Since it was an online clearence I would have paid more with Hot Topic's high shipping. This dress is brand name item with good styling. You don't have to pay an arm and a leg for clothes, people! Give me a break.

I really have no sympathy for conservatives. I'm sorry, but areas of study studying humanity are going to be more liberal, because it is popular to try to have new ideas. We've already heard "Whites are superior" "Women don't deserve to be studied" ,etc. That's old news. The new hotness is to study all of society. So the orientation is anti conservative- conservatives make up some idealized society, and pretend society really is like that, and get mad when reality intrudes. Liberals look at the real society, and then make up an idealized society that they want to make it into, and since the liberal approach involves looking at the actual society first, you'll see researchers of the actual society being more liberal. Maybe conservatives should look at the actual society first, and then have their idealized conservative vision of it?

An interesting weirdness here is the assumption that university professors don't have real world experience, usually parroted by conservatives- who think that telling teens not to have sex will prevent teen sex, and that shooting people's brothers and sisters doesn't make them filled with anger and desire for revenge.

My personal experience is that some of my professors will mention god, or something, but not in a conservative way. Basically, they personally believe in their particular god, but you won't see them lobbying the school to not teach evolution or to ban the worship of people who have other gods. My favorite professor from a political viewpoint was my sociology professor. He was probably liberal, but sometimes he'd pretend to be conservative so that we'd see both sides.

Of course in my college, we also got real sex ed in health class, so what do I know? An interesting point I see is some people's math bias here. Like apparently if you do something with numbers, it's automatically more important and better than if you do it with words. Of course, an intelligent person would note that psychology majors don't have to take a statistics class for nothing, and that many social science disciplines back up their theories with hard numbers, but in slagging off anyone who wants to actually learn something about the world instead of just parroting a bunch of BS you don't even know is true, that gets lost. I wonder why.

However, I always wonder why conservatives even bother whining about this sort of thing. I'm black so when I talk about real problems, I get pull yourself up by the bootstraps. However, a bunch of fat cats that get respect even though they can't think worth a lick expect all sorts of special privileges. Hey, guys, why don't you just teach at the Bob Jones Universities of the world and leave the decent places up to us? I mean, separate but equal is better than the separate but unequal you want for us.

Do your god damned job, pharmacists. I just don't get it. They don't want to have to pay for 'welfare queens' but do their darnedest to fuck up everyone's reproductive health. From abstinence only education as if Susie the cheerleader is going to not just decide "Oh, well, I'm in love! We'll get married anyway"I'm one of the lucky ones. My mom didn't fuck with that dumb ass abstinence only crap. She knew that you're fooling yourself if you think that your kids are just going to not experiment with certain things- especially sex. So I always insist on condoms when I'm skating the line of ambiguity between virginity and non virginity.

Anyway, now this stupid clamping down on birth control, and they don't want anyone to get an abortion either. But they don't like single moms either. So it's like a triple bind there. They just don't want you to do anything! Like in a perfect world they could say all that, but it's not a perfect world. People are going to fuck, condoms are going to break, birth control will go awry... Shit happens! But we are human beings, and can fix shit.

I may have stayed up til 2 am goofing off, but I can finish my stats homework today. I don't have to be forced to not complete my homework and lab because I did something stupid yesterday, especially not if you're going to fail me and call me names like "idiot" or "stupid n word", you know? So why ruin women's lives forever just to get your jollies?

I feel really guilty for missing tutoring today. So I was thinking about that when I ran across this post on why kids can't read. I don't remember any of this whole word stuff. I remember being really bored that they were teaching phonics because my mom had already used phonics to teach me to read before kindergarten. Anyway, the kids I tutor both have sight word problems, as I call them, not reading the whole word before concluding what word it is. However, they are both smart kids, just need a bit of a push along.

I'd like to put a disclaimer up to say that I do not agree with all contents of the above link. Like I think it's important to try to understand other cultures, and no, I don't think the fact that the kid I was tutoring read a book about a Puerto Rican kid and his grandma will ruin his education. For all our talk on personal responsibility, I don't think that we should blame everything on someone else like it is popular nowadays. We can never defeat terrorism unless we find out our own contribution to it, instead of crying like babies when someone points out that America is not perfect.

Anyway, I'm watching Soul Food the series and it is pretty good- I love a good soap opera. I wonder when there will be more boxes out since apparently it is a five season show, not one season like Freaks and Geeks or My So Called Life which are my only other TV shows. Well, American ones, I have several anime TV series.

5 volumes of Happy Mania for me! Oh the wonders of the preoccupied attachment style. It's good to see a comic about someone with a bad personality. Heh, my copy of volume 3 has a parental advisory sticker. When did they start doing that for comics?

Hey, it's time for kidney selling fun! Enjoy kiddies.

Well, for those who have been procrastinating, you can get all of Fancy Lala for $50. You need this. Unless you hate cute. Then you don't. Sucks for you.

I would like to remind all my readers(well, I only have 2, but they can remind their friends) that participating in hate crimes makes you a stupid little wimp, and if you can't take racial diversity, it would be better for you to kill yourself, as we don't need to waste the time processing your kind down at the court house. Another note- I like how the shirts worn by whites in one of the incidents(summary- racial tensions at school, interracial fights) basically call for the killing of blacks- the confederate battle flag has flown over many a murder, and 'white power' doesn't mean anything good- it means the power to murder black folk, and laugh about it. However, the black kids got 'NFL' which apparently means that blacks will live forever(I'm not familiar with that. In my school's shirt battle, it was FUBU, which makes white folk seem even more ridiculous. for us by us versus murder. and there's a contest here?) i.e. it's more of defiance, than we want to kill you for no good reason. Think on that.

On a lighter note, Something Awful sometimes has awful links of the day that I like. I think that they should keep to obviously deranged people, not just someone making pro nude (nsfw: nudity) comics. I like the art in this comic as the person draws all shapes, sizes and races of people. The writing isn't perfect, but it's actually sort of entertaining. It reminds me of old Archie comics- a bunch of cheerful protagonists get into gentle adventures. That's the beauty of web comics- you can appeal to a niche of a niche, and it'll be fine.

The Personal is the Political

This is a famous slogan, but I don't know who said it. I associate it with feminism. To a good extent this is true. I often note on this blog that I am frightened of others. You may also note that I rant on racism a great deal. It's because it strikes me of another aspect of how frightening other people are. You wake up one day, and you're born the 'wrong' color, and all the sudden, no matter what you do, people will never consider you as worthy as folks born the 'right' color, and the kicker is- what color your skin is has nothing to do with anything.

It does not make your history unworthy of study, it does not make your people stupider than anyone else, it doesn't do any of the crazy stuff people say it does. It's just a trait- like red hair. If I ran around saying that "People with red hair never did anything important" I would be asked to have proof. But apparently, you don't need any proof to badmouth black folk. People just decide they hate you, and they believe it, and they don't need anything other than that.

The only real racial difference I have found is that white people, even nice white people, tend not to be able to get racial issues. For example, I am talking tot his guy about racial issues. It's kinda like he has a special pass or something. Like he can redeem it for "making offensive comments/assumptions about blacks in public" "bragging loudly about his ignorance" "voting against himself to punish blacks" "ignoring what black people say about racism, and just trying to make self feel good" "assuming that black people have no human worth" and other common manifestations of racism. He doesn't understand why I am mad that he has this card. I mean, he didn't cash it in. But I am mad that he has the option to, even if he never cashes it in, ever.

Care packages for soldiers. I wish I had my comics here so I could send them.

I don't get why itunes hasn't closed the loophole where I can listen to tons of people's music libraries. My guess is that this feature was for people with computers upstairs and downstairs, but I can listen to the music of my dorm mates, for some technical reason.

Also, here is a pornographic post. It involves a beautiful Caucasian looking girl, with natural boobs, pubes(shaved into one of those designs, but still enough to be attractive), and a decent butt. Not to mention the costuming for this is so opulent. There's a beautiful sheer top, some Victorian style surroundings, and there is also a lovely library back drop and emo glasses. The photographers really understood the importance of costume for sex appeal. None of this back alley photographs just showing a girl blandly showing her beaver, and it's all shaved, so it's not even cute.

No, these people knew that some of us need some sensuality in our porn pictures. Well, at least I do. I am not too aroused by porn without a good setting- when I have a sexual fantasy- I don't just see boobs or cock, whatever is the case. I see this whole sexy set up, and that's what is most arousing. I mean, people are sexy, and all, but have some fun about it.

This is a really cute post, in which a Fillipina shows us what the malls look like there. They look really interesting. I wanna go to foreign countries.

Also, a lot of people are full of brave courage in the face of adversity. For example, this post, 'game time' tells eloquently of how we need to fight. Also, Steve Gillard has been working overtime giving us eloquent hope. He tells us his personal story of adversity, and heals our hearts by explaining that the problem is not the evil of our fellow countrymen but their loss of control over their lives. I'm young and hopeful, so I don't have to stoop to hating gays to get control over my life. Of course, I do not buy into the myth that we have total control over every aspect of our lives, so my sense of control is less precarious. If I did not know that just luck, coincidence, and the actions of others do make up a part of my life, I'd be grasping for straws too. I'm not saying that you can't control anything, but there are a lot of factors that we can't separate out.

There's also talk on how we can take our country back. I'm in mourning now. I've been wearing black for three days now. (I wore black on election day. Presentment?) However, I think I'm better now. I think I can fight. I'm always worried that I'm too weak to live in this era, and should have come of age in the 90s, but I guess we'll just have to find out.

However, I cried on Wed, I cried and cried. I was really snappy too. This girl in my car pool assumed this lady was on welfare, even though she had two jobs, just because she was black and had six kids, and I just snarked at her. I don't know- it just bothers me that if you got a job, you're taking away the white people's jobs, but if you don't, you're wasting their money, and even if you do have a job, you're stealing their money anyway. I had a good session of tutoring the kids even though. The other girls talked about the election to the kids, but I was too mad, and talked about the weather and school instead.

Even though Thursday, I was really upset. I felt like this. (the strip is the day after if you read this next week) But now, I feel better. I just need to mourn, need to get my rage and anger out. Yes, rage. Rage that people don't treat their country better. I want America to be first among the world. Not for killing, not for machines, but for the love that people show to their country. I want us to be a country that is first in the world in their stewardship of the land. The country that cares about all its kids, and doesn't just downgrade them because they've actually been born. I want a country that respects motherhood- in deeds, not words.

I want a country where justice rings. Where the citizens can think for themselves. I want a country that I can be proud of. I want to go up to people from other countries and say "I'm an American" and they praise our country because it is just that good. I'm not the other members of my generation. It's 'cool' not to care about your country. By care, I don't mean slap an American flag on the bumper and say "fuck the french" I mean, caring about all people, even if they aren't white, even if they aren't male, even if they aren't rich, even if they aren't evangelical Christians.

By caring, I mean showing respect in words and deeds. Not enjoying lesbian porn, and then voting against gay rights for real lesbians. Not saying you are colorblind, yet showing your ignorance on every front. And saying you respect women, just not their rights to their bodies, is a definite no no. Be not racist by not being racist, be not sexist by not being sexist, be not hetrosexist by not being hetrosexist. Give us deeds, and we'll give you our words.

More farker round up: (I can't say this as well as other people, and I feel the same way. Maybe tomorrow I'll love my enemy. But not today)


2004-11-03 04:57:20 PM
SpoogeMaGoo

Dear Bush supporter,This election was rather personal. One of Bush's more controversial policies has life and death ramifications for someone very close to me. Please understand that I mean this from the bottom of my heart when I say this to you.I hope you and your family suffer terribly because of Dubya's policies. I hope that your days are filled with misery and heartache. I wish upon you tears and pain more powerful than can be conveyed in words. Your support of a soulless man, whose Macavelian ideological tunnel vision brings untold misery to many, is contemptuous and disgraceful.You are a sub-human stain on the earth. fark you very much.P.S. May you happen upon your daughter's lifeless body; a victim of a botched illegal abortion. Another victim of Dubya's "compassion" society.

WTF?

Please vote, so non reality based people don't fuck up the country again. My mom says that at her school she student teaches at (in TN) that people had been telling kids that Kerry would make everyone have an abortion. At the school I am tutoring at, the teachers said that Bush was for the war. Anyway, vote!

2004-11-02 07:53:48 AM
DistendedPendulusFrenulum

I enthusiastically voted for Kerry last week. The polling place was packed then. With attractive and successful African-Americans.I think the bottom left half of Shelby County has a surprise in store for Mister Bush. I think there are numerous surprises in store for Mister Bush. Perhaps not quite enough surprises to get rid of Mister Bush, but I am fervently praying. . . <---I really hate fark sometimes. (attractive and successful african american is the fark filter for the n word.) Shelby County is one of the most intelligently voting counties in TN, because of all the black people. White folk, they vote for reasons that make no sense to me. "Well, they'll give incentives to outsource my job, and there won't be any welfare for my kids, so they'll go hungry, but at least some rich white dude will get a tax cut, and Bush hates gays". I just don't get why poor white folk care if rich white people get tax cuts and perks. I mean, just because someone looks like you, doesn't mean you're going to get that same good stuff. All that good stuff folks think they are entitled to because they are white?

That's rich folk stuff. Broke ass white people ain't going to get shit beyond some broken promises and feeling superior to non whites. If they want to get screwed over they can, but come on folk. Voting based on symbolic 'moral' issues won't improve your situation. They just wind you up to vote against your own women, your own childern, and your own country. And then white folks think they can comment on how blacks vote.

At my school near a chapel or whatever, there were some candles you could light and put in sand. I tried, but the lighter was out of fluid. There was also some paintings, and a labyrith. This was for hopes of reconciliation of our divided country. I guess they were praying for reconciliation. It made me wonder. How can you reconcile with someone who doesn't want to reconcile with you? How can we have peace if people's ideologies don't end where our rights begin? We can all pray for peace, but do people care? Can we truly make this country a country for the benefit of everyone if we get tantrums every time we try to point out any flaw?

I hope for peace, redemption, reconciliation, and all other things. But in my heart, I can't forgive those who would want me to be second class. I can't forgive those who would sacrifice my life for their ideals. I don't know whether I could ever forgive. I simply somehow do not feel it's ok to let people hurt you, and get away with it. I just don't have a kind heart.

Like these chicks in my car pool were all like "They have weird names, LOL!!!!" and I wanted to be like smacking them in the face. I did actually say something, but it was much nicer than what I wanted to say. Seriously, who says that white folks gotta be the ones who determine what names are acceptable? If you don't have a white name, you should be laughed at? Like what the fuck?

I want to be like we're not your fucking servants. We determine for ourselves what we want to name our kids. But you know kids these days. They are too stupid to know somethings just aren't funny, just aren't jokes. That they have real consequences, that society is made of individual actions. Anyway, I want to be able to do something great. But I don't know what I want to do yet. I want to be a hero, and I want everyone else to be one too. I guess I'm just a weird person. But at least I'm not a fucking douche, who is too fucking stupid to understand that there's no law that we have to have stupid ass white names. Fuck you!

Oh yea, and I'd like to remind people. If you can vote for Kerry, vote for Kerry. We don't need a slender margin of victory, we need a big fat landslide so we don't have to hear Bush's lawyers for weeks. Tomorrow is voting day! I don't think I can watch it with the Democrats, if Kerry loses I'll probably start sobbing. I'm just so emotional. But they have bar b q, and ice tea! But it probably isn't as good as Memphis bar b q...

I somehow reread Rush Limbaugh, Newspeak and Fascism, well, at least part one, and you know, the word racism has also transformed. Instead of being the real lived experience of blacks and other people of color, it has become some bizarre theorectical thing- like Saturday at a party, I was like "You're white!" to a guy(I had drank too much and my list of obvious characteristics had dwindled) and that is racist in that bizzaro definition, but not that millions of black kids are being tracked below their ability. In the bizzaro definition, it's apparently racist to try to repair any damages that real world racism has caused.

The more I look at people, the more I see that everyone lives in different realities. But how much people's realities are real, I don't know. I know that I probably am a bit scared of people out of proportion to reality, but just how out of proportion? By scared of people, I mean I'm the type who is very quiet and shys away from others when feeling bad. I also am very nervous. How did my bizzare personal problems end up in this?! Oh well, that sucks for you, the blog reader. I have to do shitty stats homework today, but a winner is me because I don't have another stats test til the 17th.