I'd like to submit that looking for a partner is soul sucking, self esteem crushing, and in general, horrible. I sometimes think I'd prefer arranged marriages although I've read enough books to know better. It's so soul crushing because at the exact horrible moment of quarter life crisis, the moment in which you hear someone is interviewing at Harvard Med school, and you won't even make the deadlines for social work school, the horrible voice in your head that accompanies all these realizations whispers "and she has a boyfriend". It's the coup de grace in the revealation of your lack of worth.

You can say you never wanted to go to med school. You can talk about how you hate blood. You can talk about how the 100 hour weeks for some shitty wage for years on end aren't really worth it in the end. But it's hard to argue with a boyfriend, because everyone has one. But you. Girls who spent their afternoons with legs in the air while you were studying algebra and now have ten unruly brats to show for it? Boyfriend. That creepy guy at the snake handling church whose testimony was about how he killed two people? Girlfriend. Suicide Bombers? Girlfriends. Drug Addicts? Boyfriends, girlfriends, whateverelsefriends out the wazoo. Even ten year olds are blissfully paired off.

But, there's you- the only person on the entire planet who is unpartnered? Well, you must not be trying hard enough. Instead of sleeping so you can actually go to class and not fail college, you should stand night after night in loud clubs where you can't hear anyone, while tall large breasted girls get off with all the guys. Or maybe you should suffer through frat parties, despite having grown out of them freshman year? Sit in smoky bars for no good reason at all, while your thirty pages of papers to do sit at home undone?


Sure, maybe today you could barely get yourself to type up a survey or fix yourself a cup of tea, but taking on another full time job? Easy Peasy. Yet again, I hate everybody and wish they would all die. Meeting people in everyday life? Not a chance. Today, I overslept and was nearly late for a quiz- putting on a fuckton of makeup? Yea right. Dressing like a slut? It's 40 fucking degrees outside.

People say "be confident" They are crazy. Nothing will make you hate yourself more than a venue in which everything can be wrong. My hair is probably too nappy, maybe I should straighten it? No, my hair looks like a hot mess straight. Should I go to a demotologist? But does anyone notice the old scars of long gone acne? Maybe if I was thinner? But I really can't lose much more weight. Well, what if I dressed sluttier? I already did that. What if you pretended not to be interested in fun things? No, that's too fake. Oh no, too forward with my interests! I'm sure that scared him away! Maybe I should talk more? Geh, I talked too much. Everything can go wrong, and if it does, it's all your fault fot being a horrible person. But if you give up, you're a horrible person too.

You can't win, and there's no cure.

The white folks whining about Asians come in for a new level of mockery. So remember- racists- everyone is laughing at you.

Ah, a lovely merger of fashion and politics. I don't get the resident troll's take on this. I mean seriously, are Republicans going to go "Well, saving kids from dying of AIDS is bad, because a guy had on an outfit that riffed on gay marriage"? I seriously doubt it. Speaking of Republicans, watch out for the Council of Conservative Citizens. They have merely changed the name from White Citizen's Councils, but apparently have a racist agenda.

Tip: If you're white, here's a style guide to when you might want to shut the hell up.

Now, as a black person, our culture has a concept we call shutting the hell up. This is if you're going to say something stupid, you avoid saying it. Sometimes, cultural appropiation can be a good thing.

1)If you're about to utter a sentence that has the words 'reverse racism' in them, and you're not making fun of the stupid. There are many good books that explain what the word 'racism' means, and what racism is. Read them.

2)If you're about to call blacks or anyone else 'racist'. Read a book, and remember- whites do not have a special anti criticism clause, not to mention, why don't you change your own damn behavior before talking about shit you don't know about?

3)If you're about to talk about how white men can't get a break in this society, shut up and read a book. Also, try to appropiate the concept of 'reality'. You know, stuff that's actually happening?

4)If you're going to talk about how the fact that you ate ramen noodles for a week because you were in between parental handouts means that you triumphed over poverty, and so everyone should be able to do this. (Ok, this is actually pan racial.)

5)If you are going to talk about black culture, shut the hell up. Rap videos are part of black culture like rock videos are part of white culture(although whites tend to control the production of rap more than blacks control the production of rock). It's a very small part. Also, making shit up based on racist notions from 1840 is just plain dumb.

6)If you're going to talk about how blacks do X, because you once saw one black do X, shut the hell up. I mean there are documented cases(i.e. not made up) of white people eating human flesh, but I am sure this is not typical behavior. Yea, I'm sorry that the black kids in your school beat you up. Maybe it was because you were an asshole.

7)If you want to talk about how you're not attracted to black people, shut the hell up. No one cares that you're a racist asshole who can't tell millions of people who look completely different apart. And don't talk about your weird Asian fetish- it's a bit creepy.

8)Don't talk about Africa at all unless you actually know something about it. You should hopefully have a masters before you open your mouth. And on Africa- fool.

9)Don't talk about how famous blacks would be for a whites only America. If you can read this, you can read their work, fool.

10)Don't talk about how black people are lying about racism. There's tons of books on the existence of racism, dumbass. Reality- it's a good idea.

11)Basically, if you don't know shit, have an inflated sense of entitlement or are just being a dumbass, shut the hell up. Ok, that's pan racial, but the system of white supremacy allows whites to show that they are douchebags a whole lot. Maybe a good start in not being a douche would be reading the online articles of Tim Wise.

Gillard says- Turkeys Needed. To tell the truth, all I have is a can of tuna fish, so someone with an actual turkey to give should try to give, you know?

The interesting part of this Boondocks episode is that the ho apparently is supposed to be black, but doesn't look like it. (otherwise that wouldn't say she was lightskinned nor would they call her a fake ass Mariah Carey) I'd make a long post about the racial politics of all this, but it'd take a long ass time.

WTF? Also check out my google base.

Stupid whiny whites fight intelligent people over World Nut Daily article which hopes to distract whites from the fact our gov't sucks and Republicans are fucking them and their poor white brethren over by worrying them about what some Canadians are doing. Also, some Canadian guy says that minorities in Canada feel discriminated against.

I think the difference between liberals and conservatives are that liberals are connected to the actual. For example, I find the idea that whiteness makes you qualified for jobs confusing because to me, whiteness means you have pale skin, and possibly some very funny ideas. But maybe, they aren't talking about actually being able to do the job, but some Mussolini like(I associate this with Mussolini after reading him say that the Italians won the war when they lost it) qualification of the soul. It's the same for equality. When I say it, I mean equality of results- i.e. actual, empirically measurable things. But they mean equality of opportunity- in which they just feel things are equal whether they are or not. This divide between actually doing stuff and not actually doing stuff is the difference between liberal and conservative, and often between black and white.

Man, now white folks are bitching about there being too many Asians in their school. Let that be a lesson to folks who try to use Asians as a way to bash black folk. It ain't us, and it ain't Asians- it's the white folk.

CLUE BY FOUR.

Yea, It's a repost of America's Second Harvest URL. I can only give them like ten bucks,ok? But if a lot of other people all gave them ten bucks, a lot of people would be eating,ok?

P6 fights the stupid. And dude, if folks teased you in school, don't take it out on all the rest of us black folk,ok? Just one comment, though. One other possible confound is that high GPA black kids may end up being placed in honors and AP with the white kids. I did talk to other blacks in high school, but mostly in the few classes I had on the regular track, in the lunch room, and outside of school. I was tracked with nearly all whites, so thus, I had more white friends than black. I'm not sure if they removed this possible confound. Also, what if blacks who go to schools with more whites are richer(and thus more likely to have high GPAs)? That could also confound the research.

Heart melting cuteness.

It seems that somehow they still managed to fuck us over with the budget, but the Demos managed to ease the evil a little bit, such as getting kids some freaking school lunches.

MARTA, collective bargaining and health care.

Well, we're fucked.

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The Colbert Report helped me learn about this important proposal that can hopefully lead to a greater support to not have terrible fucking health care in this country.

Apparently they didn't cut Pell Grants for the poor. You still need to give food, blood, etc.

My swim teacher wears these shoes. Today we practiced jumping off the diving board and swimming to either the wall or rope without any gear(we started off with fins and a floating board). She wanted me to go to the rope(I'm always picked on as I'm the worst person in the class) but I said I didn't have the strength. I have difficulity swimming both because I'm not strong enough and because I can't figure out how to breathe. I can now swim at least 15 yards on my front without stopping. I can swim up to 50 yards on my back without stopping now. Before I took the swim class, I could barely even get in the water because I have been frightened of water since I nearly drowned at a water park when I was 7.

Well, at least my top didn't flip over completely this time. The last time we practiced jumping off the wall my tankini top flipped completely up and I had to fix it underwater.