About white liberal guilt and white conservative guilt. I think white conservative guilt(the ever present desire to deny that anything wrong happened or continues to happen to blacks, which I feel is rooted in guilt) is stronger than white liberal guilt. At least in white liberal guilt, you can take reality into your consciousness- something bad happened. Maybe your efforts to make amends might be not the most effective, but at least you're capable of understanding there is a problem. White conservative guilt instead is mostly the making of excuses to make yourself feel better. "Oh, somehow, through magic, having greater melanin in your skin makes you a bad person, so it's ok if the police kill people in the street" It's not rooted in positive guilt, that's what I mean. Positive guilt is when you break the lamp and you try to sweep up the pieces and glue it back together. Negative guilt is when you break the lamp, and then you pin it on your sister. Man, this feels better than packing.

I goofed off all day at the Ren Faire, and pigged out terribly, and got my mom ye olde lavender sacthel, making it all ok.