John Sayles talks about Sunshine State here, and it got me thinking. I crave community, but can never seem to reach that point. I'm always somewhat on the outside, or something. I can never really get that feeling of connection to others that I crave.

I wonder if community is just an illusion or maybe I can't feel it because of some problem in myself. However this has arisen, there's nowhere I can be myself and feel understood, supported by others. I wonder if others feel connected to others, or maybe they are just pretending.

This is the kind of thorny problem you can never talk about because it can't be resolved by hard work or optimism. It goes against the cultural grain, so all you get is a pickle bottle label.